5/4/15

Conversations

"I'm sorry I feel like I have the right to put my hands on your body without your permission" She said.

"Sometimes it feels like we're drawn together. Like we got past permission a long time ago." He replied.

"I don't want to say I'm yours. That's too possessive and not at all like what I mean."

"I do not belong to anyone but I feel connected to some people in a tangible way. Like I believe there are, on some plane, tangible lines binding us to one another."

"Those connections are hard to find. They throw your life into the turmoil of a new path with their force. If they are severed it hurts forever and leaves a lasting ache. When they've become too thick and grow too strong they hurt to stretch apart too far."

"Maybe they are more like vines growing into what we'd call a family tree."

"I don't know if blood explicitly or bodily fluid exchange in general creates family. Germs."

"Humans are a gooey species."

"We're amorphis."

"The skin just creates the illusion that we're a solid being entirely separate from our environment."

"Sometimes I can feel people standing next to me.

I am certain if I were blind I'd be able to tell when certain people were near. I feel like blind people could verify this. That their other senses, more than 5, compensate for the lack of visual sight."

"Same reality but completely different."

"Exactly."

"Sometimes I wonder if I'm living in the same reality as everyone else."

"I look for moments no one else even notices."

" I really don't think we're crazy."

"Maybe just advanced?"

"Maybe... " she laughs loudly and awkwardly

"Certainly from another planet."

"When I was 9 my mom let me pick colors for the walls of our room. A room we had to share. Everyone said she was crazy but she let me pick hot pink and jade green. Red and green are complementary colors. But this wasn't just something nice. It was the brightest, safest space to grow up in."

"Sometimes you just have to trust your instincts."

"I didn't think I'd be able to do it. You know?"

"Do what?"

"Paint the room hot pink and jade green, I just thought it was a good idea. Worth a shot."

"I don't like to read too much into things."

"I read too much into everything. Life is about the more memorable crazy decisions."

"Things that get the human juices flowing." He laughs

"Hormones. Sweat. Pee. Poop. And the ever elusive sexual fluids."

They both laugh

"I guess I should go."

"I never want you to go."

"I always come back. Usually too soon."

"You have to go so we can live more to talk about."

"I always talk too much."

"Not for me."